Why do you have to make it worse?

Just that one simple yet powerful word
which will never ever be heard.
You wrote it in the letter.
'cos you couldn't say it right to my face.
Give me that Sunday School answer.
Repent yourself away.

Does it hurt to know that I'll never be there?
Bet it sucks to see my face everywhere.
It was you who chose to end it like you did.
I was the last to know.
You knew exactly what you would do.
Don't say you simply lost your way.
They may believe you but I never will.
Never again.

Goodbye to you

Let him know that you know best
'Cos after all you do know best.
Try to slip past his defence
without granting innocence.
Lay down a list of what is wrong
the things you've told him all along
and pray to God that he hears you...

He didn't.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend.
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life.

Last song I'm wasting on you

Here's the thing, we started out friends. It was cool, it was all pretend.
I dedicated, we took our time. It wasn't long till I called you mine.
But I never hear you say, 'I just wanna be with you.' Guess you never felt that way.
Then again, all you'd ever hear me say is how I picture me with you.
That's all you'd ever hear me say...

But you know what?

Since you've been gone, I can breathe for the first time. I'm so moving on.
Thanks to you, now I get what I want. You should know that I get what I want.

Forget you and goodbye!

No direction

All day staring at the ceiling,
making friends with shadows on my wall.
All night hearing voices telling me
that I should get some sleep because
tomorrow might be good for something.

Talking to myself in public,
dodging glances on the train.
I know they've all been talking about me.
I can hear them whisper and it makes me
think there must be something wrong with me.

Out of all the hours thinking,
somehow I've lost my mind.
Feeling like I'm heading for a breakdown
and I don't know why.

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell.
I know right now you can't tell.
Stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
a different side of me.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired.
I know right now you don't care.
Soon enough you're gonna think of me
and how I used to be.

ghost of you won't go away

What do you do when your heart is in two places?
You feel burned and torn inside.
You feel loved but you just can't embrace it.
When you found someone who cares at the wrong time...

I miss her, I miss her and I'm missing her.

But you're sitting in the front row, want to be first in line.
Waiting by my window, giving me all your time.
You could be my hero, if only I could let go.
Her love is still in me like a broken arrow.

I never felt this way before

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone, the face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone, the words I need to hear to always get
me through the day and make it okay... I miss you.

Random

I was looking at the Graduation Day pictures
so randomly and I realised I wrote
NOTHING
about it?
I'm going to write an essay about it!





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Light at end of the tunnel

The moment you left the cab, a solemn atmosphere immediately filled up my world.

Thoughts of the mistakes made by the adults flashed through my mind. The mistakes

they created resulted in your suffering, how unfair is that? You were made to bear

the cross unwillingly, it wasn't your stupid decision. Now you are a walking oversight

and that has been haunting you for your life. It is troubling me now too. We could not

reveal who we are to save the adults' embarrassment and what they have done.

I am helpless. I can do nothing to make it all better. It is a blemish which we cannot rub

it away. It is a permanent mark. I can only hope that everyone will feel better, to get better

and see life in a different light. Will the good guy above show us the way?

You are God's gift to me. I will cling on to you dearly.

Big girls don't cry

Finding someone else you can't get enough of,
someone who wants to be with you too.
Isn't this the best part of breaking up?

All time low

So many bullshit I do not understand.

Feels like I've made a fool of myself.

Who's gonna catch me when I fall?

Forget it.

You're always so fickle-minded

and can't decide what you want.

I guess I got that all from you.

Hiding the truth

It's the elephant in the room
and we pretend that we don't see it.
It's an avalanche that looms above our heads
but we don't believe it.

Trying to be perfect.
Trying not to let you down.
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now.
The floors underneath our feets are crumbling
and the walls we built together are tumbling.
I still stand here holding up the roof
'cos it's easier than telling the truth.

Stop ignoring that
our hearts are mourning
and let the rain come in.
Stop pretending
that it's not ending

and let the end begin...

I struggle to believe in you

What language do you speak
if you speak at all?
Are you some kind of freak
who lives to raise the ones who fall?

Would you tell me why
the cat fights the dog?
Do you go to the mosque
or the synagogue?

Do you feel our pain
and walk in our shoes?
Have you ever felt starved
or is your belly always full?

How many people die
and hurt in your name?
Does that make you proud
or does it bring you shame?

How do you do?
How does it feel to be so high?
Are you happy?
Do you ever cry?
If our fates have all been
wrapped around your finger
and if you wrote the script,
why the troublemakers?

Gravity

I know that
you still haven't found you
and I want to stand on my own too.
Suddenly, you start to show
signs of what is possible.

Then you're back to your ways
and I let me down.
Tell me why I keep trying to stay around?
Deep down inside,
I am calling time on you...

Everytime,
I'm ready to leave,
I always seem to be
pulling in the wrong direction,
diving in with no protection.

You can't keep
steering me wrong
but like gravity...

You're
pulling me back,
pulling me in.
Why you
pulling me back,
pulling me in?
Just like gravity...

Gravity

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do,
I'd still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You're neither friend nor foe
though I can't seem to let you go.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
The one thing that I still know is that
you're keeping me down...

So set me free, leave me be.
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall.
Just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

Always the wild one

If there's a question about my intentions,
I'll tell you. I'm not here to sell you
Or tell you to go to hell.
I'm not a brat like that!
I'm not a trick you play, I'm wired the different way.
I'm not a mistake, I'm not a fake - It's set in my DNA.
Don't change me, don't try to.

I wanna fly! I wanna drive! I wanna go!
I wanna be a part of something I don't know.
And if you try to hold me back I might explode!
Baby, by now you should know

I can't be tamed!
I can't be saved.
I can't be blamed.
I can't be changed.
I can't be tamed!

These two nights had been hurting my head. I thought we agreed on what we said, promised
and compromised. Clearly, it's more than meets the eyes as always. I'm not sure where will
this go but I am not going to be tied down. I am not ready and I want freedom. I want to go
wherever I want to and do whatever I want to. I can't be tamed, I do not want to be saved by
anything and I am not going to change what I'm doing now. Yeah?

Keep shining

Somehow, these three months had been a revelation for me. In terms of who I care
and would reciprocate, who I could really open myself up to and who could come to
me looking for a pair open arms and an open ear. In short, in terms of good friends.
The opposite of that? 酒肉朋友

Good friends do not mean that you meet this particular single one for 5 days a week
and he/she is your good friend. Quality, not quantity. You could be talking thrash with this
person for all of the days and everything is superficial. Or you could just be drinking with
him/her all night long and nothing goes right at all. There is nothing in depth about this
friendship at all. It is fun though to not care and bother about shit and just have fun. All in all,
I prefer quality sharing and meaningful talks. We do not need to meet up every week. We can
meet up once or twice every month and we update each other with what's going on in our lives.
You want to know more about your friend so you probe in a little and you share yours. We give
advices and opinions, we share our thoughts. That is quality.

I do not mind 酒肉朋友s at all. They are fun and we do not hold any responsibility to
each other because we do not know each other at all. However, they will remain in
that category. That's it. Till both of us open up if not we are each others' 酒肉朋友.

I have good friends who I meet up with every week and I love it. We would share our
thoughts, break down and cry or laugh our hearts out together. I have good friends
who I only meet once every month and we do the same. I cherish all of them and I
really hope they are my good friends twenty years down the road and they think the
same as I do.

IGY

I should've known. I didn't know you were devastated.
All I can say is, I got your back no matter what and you know that.
You know I'm only nice to those who treated me right and you were
great. I have no idea how did I made you feel the opposite. I couldn't
call or text but I could've gone up to your crib and bring a can or two.
So yeah I'm going right now bro, I got you.

You stoopid ass

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me.
Who made you King of Anything?
So you dare tell me who to be.
Who died
And made you King of Anything?

Another one

Is it the breakup season or what? All my good friends are getting their hearts
broken. Even the mothafcuking self-proclaimed Hugh Hefner claimed that he's
suffering from post-breakup. What is this world coming to? I blame it on the
shitty weather. People are just getting too heated up and can't talk things over.
So yeah, we need good weather so they can calm and cool down and talk.

Or... cry over this song and MOVE ON MY DEAR FRIENDS! Dedicating to y'all.

Baby, it's over. We both know, let's go forward!
I love you but in a different way.
I love you, forever.
Now that we've come to the end of a story
And I know that it's gonna be hard for me.
Might hurt some, might get too much.
But I gotta let it be.
As the world turns around and we go different places
New things, new dreams, new faces.
Wanna shake up when we breakup, but we keep our memories

I know you can't stay. So I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time baby. So I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say
'We're movin' on and we'll be okay!'

Baby, it's better. And I want you to be happy.
Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
It ain't easy the more and the more you try.
So they'll be cheating, be deceiving, but not me and my boy/girl.
We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working.
No point in the constant fighting.
So we'll be grown ups, for a minute and admit that we're just not in it

I know you can't stay. So I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time baby. So I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say
'We're movin' on and we'll be okay!'

I might lose my mind for a while but I'll be fine
Have you heard there's this thing that heals and it's called time
Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.
And though my heart will break, a new me will fill the space.

I know you can't stay. So I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time baby. So I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say
'We're movin' on and we'll be okay!'